Please don’t take anything I say too seriously. I made this website to archive Twitter threads people liked a lot. I mean, I have an article I was writing for P&S that’s been in my drafts for the last 9 months. Do not expect frequent updates. Instead of quality writing, accept this very shoddily edited video of shooting and smoking under thermals. You can get an exclusive view of how hot I actually am.
In all seriousness, humility is important and it’s not something I feel like I always succeed in achieving. I have a lot of areas that require growth and I’m far from an expert in many areas. If I had to describe myself, acknowledging the paradox of potential glory seeking through feigned humility, I’d have to say I’m an “experienced novice.” I’ve had non-insignificant number of individuals look up to me and admire my technical and practical skill sets. The fact of the matter is, there’s always another person who knows more about a certain subject than I do.
At times in my past, I’ve been blindly ignorant and intentionally dismissive of viewpoints and criticism of my failings. I’d say that a certain influencing factor could’ve been the culture of the groups I was a member of, but overall the responsibility for personal growth and betterment lies entirely with myself. Only in recent years have I begun to break out of those patterns and objectively examine the criticisms leveled towards me.
I’ll be blunt. I’m a smug bitch at times. I still have so much to learn. While learning the value of self confidence has been an important part of my recovery; I let it overtake my capabilities and it quickly developed into a blind, near suicidal, overconfidence. It could easily be said that I was trapped by my own fear and my past. It’s really only been in the past year and a half that I’ve started learning how to balance a reasonable estimation of my capabilities and self worth with the negligent patterns of behavior of my past.
What I mean to say by all of this, is that I’m simply a person on a journey. I realize that can sound self indulgent and “basic” of me, but it’s true. I feel like I’ve come a long way already, but I know for certain I’m nowhere near where I’d like to be. I can’t say where I’ll end up, but I’m confident that as long as I value humility and strive to be a positive force for the people in my life, I’ll have made material growth.
Be excellent to each other and yourself my friends.
About The Author
Enhanced interrogation enthusiast, prior service army hooligan, "licensed medical provider" and radio autist.
Far from an expert.